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08/07: MOVEEEEEEEE
dats it..im leaving nucleus for a better reason
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02/07: wifi
guess whati wake up super early on a sunday morning, before the break of dawn and came up to genting accompany my aunt n mom to the casino
so i step in to the genting casino, played a 10 bucks machine
den bored of that
and came up to starbucks for internet. how wicked. how sick i am. sigh
but den, i just love wifi.
and owh, they should put plugs at starbucks, my batt is going to die soon.
boohoooooo england lost, brazil lost, my mom sound so desperate when she call me just now, lol. yeah can u believe it, she's watching football in a casino T___T
26/06: crap
did i just ignore here too long?haha
well, im too busy .. currently under the routine work of work hard, play hard
sigh, and this is the first time im using my mac on the office, everybody touches my baby...sigh
im darn sleepy la ...u noe why?
coz i spent my whole nite playing singles2, and i finish the game in 1 day with walkthru, played throughout my lonnnnnng weekend... and i duno why its boring but i just keep playing it. stupid me i noe.
well, i need a new hd/ pendrive soon...coz my mac...very selective, and i dun dare to plug in my other drives in here..
and owh, i hope agentina wins the world cup :D
29/05: happy mac day
yesterday ..my mom tagged me along to cyber to move stuffs, but before that i bought her to GE mall and den to my future working place, *since she was so worried bout that*
WELLL< the main thing is the GE mall, my mom bought me a macbookpro. WEEHOO. there's two reason why we being such an idiot buying on the spot there and then.
reason number 1 - its near my working place, so i can pick up the book conveniently
reason number 2 - its in malaysia, for those after sales service conveniently
and peeps, i seriously warn u that if u wanna buy apple products, please go to our dear neighbouring country aka singapore to buy, yeah well, its fairly much cheaper there, can save u about 1k rm. but yeah, we already bought it den my bro only tell...
bleks. so weeeeee for snowwie for her new macbookpro *which only can pick up somewhere nex week?*
and weee for snowwie's bro for his new ipod video *which he stupidly didnt buy skin for it*
weeee...i swore to myself, i will earn my first 10k asap, just for my mom, and targeted to buy her a osim chair, just like she nagged.
hopefully it will be easy, hmm 5 more years i suppose?
26/05: wooooosh
cutting grass in my own place...well meaning, T___T aihs, long time didnt come here d, but felt tired everytime come here haf to clear all those spams. so instead, i change the setting of the blog, and disabled writing comments from public.
SHO, that means, only members are allow to comment, so if u wanna comment, just log in as:
public - password : bubblechill
i will keep updating the password until there's no more spams in here...urgh..i dun like nucleus already :(
17/05: ending soon
the end is coming soon,sem ending soon,
housemates leaving soon,
going intern soon,
exam coming soon,
exhibition coming soon,
due date comingsooooooon.
omg, slack for one week is nottttttttt goooooood!! >.<"
04/05: a final let go...
well, its all started when i encounter my first major exposure during IDN (last november), i was determined that wow, there is so much to learn out there, and i realized that how good it can be if i can get a chance to learn from them, work with them, and just experience wat they experienced. so i make a small little promise to myself, even grabbing my first chance to talk to Ian Anderson, the boss of DESIGNER's REPUBLIC, for contacts regarding having my internship there, and believe me, i thought i was crapping.He encourages me to write to them, and even kindly give me the email address, but yea..i seriously thought he was just being kind, and layan me, until i really think about it on the bus back to Malaysia, along chatting with a good friend of mine, about the restrictions and our wild dreams to work oversea, just just to get exposed.
The urge continued after sem 3 commenced, when we are all back for our lame-o DM, where i seriously think im lost, super lost, and very lost, until i finally found something to hold on, at least, got back a little back of passion in completing it with a great final year project. Story starts during that particular internship lecture that our dear lecturer gave, that good friend of mine, told me secretly, she found who was in charged or maybe can talk to, for fulfilling our dreams...and so we plan to make an appointment to that uncle, just to know more about this.
Unfortunately, things have not been good on our way. Trust me, it was only few days or the next day after that internship talk, but we gone thru alot, asking, pushing, questioning, praying, hoping, dreaming. Until finally, we got our hope for 2 universities in Korea, but later just narrow down to one.
I forget that how many zillion times i've prayed just to hope they look at our application email,
I forget how many zillion gods that i'd prayed just to hope they will accept and welcome us,
I even forget how many zillion times i tell myself, trust my own luck,
not to say, the most superstitious act i did, asking the "wong dai sin" in HK, during the 9th day of lunar month, approval and blessing to work overseas.
Finally, we got some good news and bad news,
With the good news, i am pleased to rely on my luck, and really happy during that period. thinkign omg omgomg omg i can really gooooooo...with the consent of fcm office and mr khong and my parents.
With the bad news, my acquantances doubt their will, and withdraw one by one... which i must strength that, i undrstand every inch of their tough decision, and such my dream is officially crashed, because... I just realized im just too selfish? HAHA! BUT i dun think so. U see...
I never think so much in my years in MMU, not to say in my life. I think of every little single thing, keep doubting, keep thinking, keep searching, keep looking for the answer for my fyp. Of course, life is not just about fyp, but i do realized, the fyp is where u get a great job, and ur future? it is the end result in watever crap you learn in fcm within this 4 years, n as a dm student, wat can u do to bring future to your feild WITHOUT copying from other's ppl work, and most importantly, WITHOUT following other's footsteps. OF course, some will say, yada yada, "u can still go somewhere when u'r graduate", mom will say, "just go study ur masters somewhere la,after graduate, just go" and some will say, "hah, u wanan treat dm as ur lifelong career?".
not even that, i practically used up my time during drama time, during movie time, shopping time, driving time, eating time, chatting time discussing about these for 2 months or less? critical thinking, and gosh, i dun see myself as selfish okay. i just.....wants to go badly,and i hated myself not being brave enough to fight back my rights, and i just don like that people lie to me, although is a friendly lie, and although is a caring lie, but please, if u dun wan me to go at the first place, WHY DO U ENCOURAGE ME SO MUCH AT FIRST? okay i cant blame that as well, butbutbut seriously i just hope that i noe or i look through all these be4 i even get happy and celebrate be4 hand.
I mean, i knew all this while this is like a dream, the scenario is like u are on a balloon, and u finally grabs a piece of the cloud and hopefully u cant jump on it, and suddenly the wind blows you down and you are drown in the water. And if u got experiencing drowning in a water with soak dress of yours, i think u can understand what is my feeling now. Once again, im not posting this to make anyone felt bad, or defame or blaim or anything, this is my blog and this is just wat i experienced, first hand, burning hot new entry, from me, my sleepy mind, and my sighing heart.
and ps, do you know that feeling that u wanan cry but u wanna laugh, and vice versa? hahahaha, this is the most productive stuff i did for so long, and this is the outcome :) hahaha, can i laugh?
let go now, okay. grow up now.
okay now which company to choose for internship?
02/05: am i that useful?
hmm, if you have been tracking all my blogs all over the net, u might come across this title zillion times, and frankly, even I, the author, bored of this title/subject. BUT wat to do T____T these things still on going, and i keep helping and ppl keep hammering .things never quit, they never quit asking things from me, or i offer too much? never know.
the thing is, i dun mind helping you when u'r seriously hopeless, or cant find any solution due to frustration, i can/might be your last saviour. BUT, dun spoilt this chance by asking me do the things that u should do rite.
new friends, old friends, friends,strangers okay even relatives treat me like that. hahaha.
a point to think about, if i can choose again, i wont study in msia, i will study my degree/masters/phd in somewhere else and den come back with a stable job. so that i wont go thru these "process" in msia , where ppl know me, hunt me down and use me.
weeee, life.
23/04: 2nd annual creative academic awards
aka fcm nite (see pics under cuts)life update :|
this week pass damn slow i tell u, slow until....i can even felt the clock tickling..
monday- i came back onmonday because dun haf class on that day but got a stupid moral midterm exam which nobody have any idea where is the damn location but anyway it got cancelled AGAIN (yes third time?) and change into a take home test :| how stupid.
tuesday - went interview..my 1st interview on my entire life, its more like a chatting session, we chat until 1/2 hour liddat..hmm ask me quite a lot of bombastic questions, that i never even think before.
wedsnesday - the day of fcm nite..look at cut to see da pictures...overall i give rating 6.5 out of 10 to them...good job!!
thursday - i spent 16 hours at campus, from 9am till 11pm :| yeah...supporting my darlings for theatre play mar...damn funny lar...luv it so much!!
friday - went another interview around cyberjaya, she tot i want the job already, sigh..i dun quite like it. hehe.. suppose to submit our TAKEHOMETEST today, but when? duno. so i write until 7pm den only go passup. and he freaking keep the submission box d..so i duno will he accept my papers not la. i spent 8 hrs write that damn thing kie..write until i keesiao d.
saturday - went KL's galleriizu for installation talks. woot, i wan to own a gallery..yes yes yes..that's my biggest dream d. joseph foo rocks!! do u noe that tuhantu = tuhan and hantu? hahaha...funny.
sunday - now? im stuck here to do the final project :| its qutie lame one, none of us in the group like this project, but sigh...i also drag until quite sien. :(
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16/04: tank
u noe wat, i juz discovered tank. okayokay, i saw his name like zillion times on the news, but i didnt noe he is that tank, That one that sing that song! wahahaha.anyway, juz a shout out incase anyone duno who is TANK yet. somebody say that he's combination of leehom, jay and tao zhe ...haha i say he's juz himself, there's no need to replace anybody, because all i want is juz good music. neway...here's the cute talented tank's playlist... i recommended 曙光 ..hehe.
•「 FIGHTING 生存之道」專輯曲目
• 曙光 R&B 聖潔聖歌，虔誠的教徒 TANK 為自己的信仰所創作
• 狙擊手 超激 HARDCORE 搖滾加 RAP ，描寫身為狙擊手的無奈
• 三國戀 中國風加 R&B 加京劇，勢必再掀中國風熱潮
• 給我你的愛 深情 R&B 情歌，「終極一班」熱門片尾曲
• 我們小時後 R&B 情歌，描寫青梅竹馬純潔的青澀愛戀
• 挺你到底 活跳嘻哈，述說年輕哥兒們鬥陣情誼，活潑逗趣
• 蟑螂小強 FUNK 嘻哈， TANK 餐廳駐唱生涯自傳性心聲
• 獨唱情歌 中國風男女對唱力作，師姐 SELINA 力挺跨刀對唱
• 幾分之幾 R&B 情歌，簡單而深刻催淚，失戀者必有共鳴
• 潔西卡 民謠風 R&B 情歌，感傷無奈動聽至極
• 曙光 (ACAPELLA 版 )
• 激戰 電玩「激戰」 ONLINE 中文版主題曲
neway...fairy is a nice drama, of course i like it coz got ariel lin and and the main actor is also damn cute. mwahahaha. especially at the few sec during the ending..zomg, he's consider damn cute for a chinese actor...
storyline is bout fairy and human's love...well u noe those got sky palace, god,and stuffs... but..mmm, i like. okay not juz for the lengzai kay, and also for the storyline and ariel. hehe.
and another thing is..
i juz love it when my bro come home, i got good food and a more kind mom..!! mwahahaha especially on the financial stuffs..wmahahahahahahaha. okai shuddup.
i got my new top for fcm niteeeeeeeeeeeee weeeeeeeee its my fav whiteeeeeeeee
i need a necklace...